Nothing

There is universe, and then what? There is life, and then what?
It’s so mind-blowing when you begin to really think about these things. Will it ever be possible for us humans to fully understand the life, the creation, the actual universe, when our minds are bombarded with limits of this earth, this life cycle, limits of our thinking. Well, maybe our imagination does not really have limits, when we let it fly and if we had the eternity to ponder, explore, test, calculate...But, we don’t, at least not in the sense known to us. The life begins and ends at one point. That’s how we know it. The universe started at one point and it’s destined to end, too. At least that’s the hypothesis. “Universe is expanding.” Does it then mean that it has an end? And then what? What is beyond its end? Nothing? What is nothing? Is nothing never ending, or does it have an end as well? How can something not have an end and/or beginning? But if there is the beginning and there is the end, what is before and after. Beyond. Nothing?
Back at stage one. It’s just mind-blowing, really! One infinitely small being compared to the immensity of the universe. And going, and going and going. Until it ends; until it all ends. But does it mean that just because things work a certain way on this Earth, in this life, it/they hold truth everywhere, throughout the universe, throughout the time? Can we ever grow to the point of grasping it all? I can’t and if this material world is all there is to the “reality of being - existence,” then I don’t think we can either, as humans. Maybe there are other “dimensions,” “realities,” part of the “eternal life cycle,” unknown to us at this stage. Or maybe, there’s nothing. The universe started, people are born and then die, universe dies. That’s almost more mind-blowing, more difficult for me to understand, or maybe just to accept, than the idea that time is endless, with no beginning, no end, with endless amount of “dimensions, realities, stages...”
And I’m back to stage one: just mind-blowing. And tomorrow, I might no longer exist. Well, not in this reality...

Cherish the moments!

Dumb

Maybe I'm dumb, maybe naive, or maybe just happy.
Maybe I just refuse to see and accept the reality,
the negativity of our everyday lives,
positivity of random occurrences.
Maybe it gets to me, maybe it crawls beneath my skin.
I see the things the way they are,
or appear to be.
I take it all in and I breathe,
let it all go when I see fit.
Forgive, forget, or never accept...
I just don't think that all questions are meant to be answered,
not all mysteries meant for all eyes and ears.
Perhaps there's a pattern
and maybe it's just what we need
to breathe with ease
to live as we please.

Gloomy tune

The sun is shining, but my mind is overcast.
The thoughts are pounding,
trying to get out of the box,
enclosed within the walls of space and time,
trying to overtake the speed of light.

The day is lovely, but my mind is confused,
why happiness is so fleeting
and freedom does not exist,
why hearts stop beating
and people get abused.

The sun is shining
and I sing this gloomy tune.

I

In your eyes there is something that makes you your own.
In your eyes you hide your soul.
In your eyes the smile and sadness come through.
In your eyes I seek the truth.

In your smile the worries disappear,
In your smile I can see the dreams,
In your smile the happiness dances,
In your smile the sun shines through.

In your heart I try to make an impression.
In your heart I look for expression.
In your heart I want to reside,
But that's just my selfish I.

You are meant to fly.

Reflection 9,853

So many possibilities, endless really. The ways your life could have, can turn out, the outcomes of a single situation, the steps you can choose to take, the ways the turns unwind. I believe there's a meaning to all of this, why things happen the way they do. There's a sense in them. Maybe it is just a wishful thinking in the human nature speaking inside of me. But, it's on the days like these, I realize how lucky I have been and that a happiness is a tricky, fleeting thing. I try to hold on to this pleasant feeling, I try to savor these moments of sweet simple joy.
It appears and disappears with not much of a warning sign, you just realize and appreciate the blessings of your life and forget about the little things that tend to weigh you down. But it is those moments that you need to be aware of and enjoy this awareness, because we all do have issues. Perhaps some more than the others, but it's exactly what one must do to enjoy his or her life. Let go of those many little things that make our lives complicated, difficult, if for a moment, it is not all bad. And as much as you may think that whatever you've been through is the worst, it probably isn't, for it can always get worse. It's never so bad it cannot get worse.
So if you reach a moment of enjoyment and become fully aware of it, savor it, cherish it, because things change all the time. Every (good) moment is a gift.

Reflection 11,463

The rush of feelings streaming through my veins, why are we constantly bombarded with temptation? Temptation to do something, eat something, say something that we shouldn’t perhaps. I guess, life would be too easy otherwise...boring, maybe? As with many things, once we have had something or we have been doing something for some time, it becomes familiar, ordinary, somewhat boring and we tend to take it for granted.

But, why must we be reminded of things we want to forget. Is it just the fact (alone), the act of trying to forget something that makes it impossible to do?

Reflection 10,892

Another ordinary day that in itself is not so ordinary, for no other day will ever be exactly the same. It is Friday, like many others, waking up in the morning, getting ready and rushing to work, working, getting bored with the monotonous work, being reminded of past when you were part of it, new thoughts, plans for evening (that did not quite worked out as planned), enjoying the moments of peaceful yet somewhat nostalgic reflection, reading a book, eating my dinner, occasionally watching the surroundings. It never seizes to amaze me, how this life evolves and moments pass, with meaning or meaningless. That’s the constant battle human mind fights every day.

It ended up being a melancholic day that made me write these lines. Because funny enough, I tend to write only when something’s weighing down my spirit.

Or maybe it’s just one of those days when writing muse kicks me into motion to write whatever comes into my mind. Good night, my friend!

Reflection 8,759

Why do we seem to want something we don’t have, when things seem perfectly fine the way they are. Why do we must wonder how it would be, if things were different. “What if I had not done that? What if I did not go there? What if I did or did not say that? What if...?”
Is it just a part of  human curiosity, restlessness, inquiry? “Want it all, want to know it all, nature.”
Yes, same questions over and over again, yet different answers at different times. So many possibilities, so much room for exploration.
At times, so little time to explore them all.